Just randomly updating

Hi! I'm in my final exam week. And 1 more paper to go! Oh yeah! LOL. I have no plans for upcoming-awaited semester break. What will you do if you are me? My mom ask me to find part-time or something, but well, I'm too lazy to step out the house when I'm already in the house. So that's that.

My last paper is this Friday. I haven't read anything. (See, I told you I'm lazy). And Mom said she's gonna pick me up this Sunday. That's 2 days after "freedom-official-kinda"! 

OK, that's it. I have no mood for this. Gonna clean this dirty keyboard. Out!

Hating someone again

It has been a while since my last post.

And Yes, as this post title, I'm hating someone again. This time, it's my brother. There are problems with his attitude. No respect for me, and I'm being looked down. Why? Because I'm childish? Because I'm silly, irrelevant? He's no different, either.

Just now, I ask him to put back things he used. I'm just asking him POLITELY! And he' saying '"SHUT UP!" to me! TO ME! How dare he! Who is he to say SHUT UP to me? He has no right! He is just my little brother! He is going too far.

And my mother too, why is she ignoring what that boy done to me? Am I someone who are not important in this family? I bet they won't feel sad once I'm dead.

Maybe some of you feel that he was just saying that, casually. But you know, he always verbally attacking me. Yes, I know I'm not that quick witted like my brother, in fact I'm slow on thinking of serious matters. But I don't understand why he dare to ignore me like I'm nobody to him?

Maybe because I have many failures in my life? I mentioned this before in previous posts. Yes, I admit that I failed many times. But I learning from my mistakes, even though it's hard.

All I hope is a place in this house. A respect for me. I have a pride too. I'm not a stone. I have feelings. I pretend to not care on hurtful things about myself, because I really don't want to mess things up.Other people say bad things behind my back, I don't want my own family do the same to me.

p/s: I'm not being selfish.

Hisashiburi~

Oh, cobwebs everywhere! *cleaning, dusting*

I know it has been soooo looong... It's fasting month again. And Hari Raya is approaching! Without me realizing, it has been more than 1 year~ Hooray! I'm sorry to those who still follow this blog. I know! Forgive me for my laziness. Maybe you can tell me what's your plan this Hari Raya?

p/s: I'm no more a dark person. Thanks to my not-so-long-but-painful life experience.

After so long...

Wow! I can't believe I've reached semester 4 again. I just hope I won't get dismiss this time.

I still got my college privileges. but in other college. I'm in Dang Wangi college! New roommates, new environment, new perspective. Mom always said not to be too close with just anybody. But you see, I'm an over-friendly person so it's difficult not to be close with people.

Just recently, I noticed my friends is ignoring me. Maybe it's just over-reaction, right?

I think I've changed. Personally, I think I'm being more girly (hey! i know I'm a girl!). You see, before this I don't mind being soaked with sweat or being under the sun, but now I feel uncomfortable even when I just sweat a little. Am I really changing? I don't want to be cranky.

There are lots of thoughts still unwritten to this blog. It's still revolving in my mind, scattered. Maybe I'll continue when I get my thoughts together.

Isogashi!

Oh, I'm so busy this month. And my money; pocket money and salary, flows like water. Now I know how my parents feel when spending money for my things. It's unstoppable! This only makes me want to work even more!

Enough of that. We move on to my schedule for the next day. Tomorrow night, I'll have meeting with my group. Before that, shop for the trip, which is in 2 weeks time... We are going to Johor Bahru! Woot, woot!

oh well... that's all~ Till next time!

Today, let me curse in Malay!

I'm sorry if you don't understand this, but this time, I feel like cursing in Malay would make that bitch understand!

Here I go...
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Kau ingat kau tu bagus sangat ke? Jangan ingat kau tu Ketua Level, kau tu dh cukup bagus la! Kau tu baru je nak hidup la! Bangang la kau sebab berani tengking aku! Memang sekarang aku tulis dalam blog je. Dah la selama ni kau tak pernah nak hormat aku, jangan harap aku nak hormat kau balik. Ko pun selama ni tak pernah senyum balik pun kat aku. kau tak rasa bersalah ke? Kau memang tak ada kena mengena dengan hidup aku. Aku tak mau libatkan mak bapak kau, tapi aku rasa kesian kat mak bapak kau sebab sia2 diorang ajar kau tapi kau tak pernah nak ikut! SIAL la kau! Kau memang sengaja cari pasal dengan aku! Aku takkan maafkan kau selagi kau tak melutut minta maaf dengan aku!

Aku harap aku takkan jumpa spesies macam kau lagi. Aku dah muak. Spesies macam kau cuma berlagak bagus, tapi tak sedar kelemahan diri. Sudah2 la tu buat masam muka dengan aku. Lebih baik kau pergi kerja kt kilang asam jawa, boleh tolong tokey kilang tu kaya. Jangan sebab perangai kau yang macam tu, sejarah hidup kau jadi hitam.
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Oh, you wish you want to know how it became like this? It's because I make her wait outside till I unlock the door. OK, fine. I was a bit late. But if it is you, you can wait PATIENTLY, right? No need to slam the door afterwards. After this I'll slam the door every time before going to class. I hope her sleep will be ugly!