Actually, I feel like I want to jump off my faculty building. I feel too stressed this semester. I don't know why. 4 more papers to come, I feel burdened.
You know that I was dismissed from my previous college, right. Yeah, you'd have known if you track back the previous posts. On the last day of last semester, I just knew my uncle helped my application to be pass through. I thought it's my own effort. But, what an ugly fact that is. It's so irony... This semester, his daughter is in this university, with me. But thank Allah, she didn't stick to me all the time, but now and then she become so demanding. She is in the same faculty with my brother. Enough of her.
I think I've lost my inspiration to study. I shouldn't say that because of what my uncle have done for me. But I really love it if it is my own effort. I can't be praised, really. I'll do worse after being praised. So, mock me. I've been mold that way.
I just hope I can get through this exam week smoothly, without suffer in the future. I've already promised myself I won't disappoint my Mom again.
Reminder to me... Please, ureshi! Wake up! You are already 21. You should realize that you should be a model to your brothers.
Pray for me for the better, guys!
