Unloved

What's the day today? Oh, it's Thursday. It has been 2 days my mother, my OWN mother, refused to talk to me. Just now, she suddenly stormed in my room and shut off all the power source in my room. While I was using my PC! What's wrong with her?

It's all because I was showing my attitude. It's not on purpose, I'd like to say that, but I doubt people will believe.

I don't have anyone to talk to. Before this, when she had problems, I listened to all of them, even though I'm not of much help. When it's me who have problem, who can I talk to? I don't have others to tell my feelings. I only have this blog.

I looked for jobs like she wanted to and got one, still refused to talk to me. I won't say I'm not in the wrong, but to hate me that much, am I really her daughter?

All this time, I always believe in her. Even though she never believed in me. My aunt said she love my brothers more than me, which I feel that's the truth.

Now I wish to live alone. Not letting others in my life. I don't believe in marriage anymore. I think it's better if it ends with me, not passed down to my future children. At least when I live alone, I won't be others' burden and trash. I'll be my own burden.

Ps. Pray hard for me to be able to get out of this life I'm having, please!
Pps. Yes I know there are others' life harder than me. I just wish to be loved for what I am.